Why I'm Blogging

I seriously never thought I would become a blogger.  Along with things like Twitter, I had often judged bloggers as people who thought way to highly of their own opinions (I don't mean to offend any avid bloggers out there).  However, my perspective has drastically changed within the last few days. 

Last week I was invited to a ChannelMom Coffee by a friend from church.  I was hesitant to go for a variety of reasons but ultimately felt like God wanted me to be there.  I went and although it was kind of awkward at first because I didn't know anyone there very well, I soon realized why God had me there.  The guest speaker for the night, Adrienne Graves, is a woman who spent 5 1/.2 months in the hospital with her infant son and ultimately lost him when he was 7 months old.  She shared her story with us and my heart broke for the pain she had suffered but I also felt a sad sort of comradery with her.  When her son first went to the hospital, she started a blog to keep friends and family members updated on what was happening (you can read her blog here).  She also spoke that night about her mission to have women tell their stories whatever they may be.  She has started an organization called BevyGirls whose vision is "Each of us has a story with unique gifts and strengths to share with the world.  Bevy encourages women to tell their stories with confidence, learning along the way we are all part of a much bigger story."

Over the last couple of days, I started reading her blog.  I was inspired again by the rawness with which she shared her emotions, struggles, faith, and unfailing hope throughout her son's illness.  I began wishing I had such a honest, heartfelt record of our time with Wesley in the hospital.  We've kept friends and family updated through texts, facebook, and emails but so much of that is one sentence updates that lack any details, emotions, or depth.  I feel like his life so far and my journey in learning to be his mom is a story I should tell.

Since Wesley's journey is just beginning, I decided that I will blog about our experiences from here on out.  I will try my best to be blatantly honest with what I write, no candy coating.  I hope to go back and blog about our hospital stay before I forget all the emotions and details but that seems like a daunting task right now.  For now, I will blog about today. 

My goals for this blog: I hope that this allows those friends and family who are interested to stay updated on Wesley's status and progress more than quick facebook status'.  I hope it is therapeutic for me to write down my thoughts, experiences, and struggles. I hope this is able to encourage someone who may have lived or is living through a similar situation.

Wes and I are headed to the Anchor Center tomorrow morning.  I'll explain tomorrow what that is. Goodnight friends, family, strangers, or no one.