Thank You

I am so incredibly blessed by everyone who is following Wesley's story. I may not respond to your individual comments or messages but please know that I read them and am deeply encouraged. I can't imagine where I would be right now without the love and encouragement we've received so far in Wesley's life.  I know that his life is a testament to many many answered prayers ( please keep praying because it's still a long road ahead). I hope and pray that he is able to return those blessings. Sometimes I wonder why God chose to save him. I often think it's because He knew I couldn't survive the pain of losing my baby, but I hope that there is yet a bigger purpose for his life. Right now it seems so hard to see the future. It's hard to even have dreams about the future because I can't bare the thought of him being unable (rather than unwilling) to fulfill those dreams.  I am able to face those sobering thoughts because of all the support everyone has given. I can imagine you often don't know what to say to me (as I've often felt that way when talking to people who have faced hardships), but just the knowledge that you care and are praying for us is huge.

I'm having a BBQ on June 16 for anyone and everyone who cares about Wesley. If you would like to come, comment for me and I will send you more info. Please come and bring anyone else who has been following Wesley's story. I'm excited to have everyone together and to celebrate the first 6 months of Wesley's life.

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  1. AnonymousJune 6, 2012 at 6:57 PM

    Hey Megan! We will definitely be there. Let us know if we need to bring anything. Ed and Cheryl

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