Rainbows and Tulips

Since becoming a Christian, rainbows gained new meaning for me.  Instead of simply a beautiful part of nature or a marvel of science, they are also a reminder of God's promises to us.  They are a reassurance that our God is not only all-powerful and just, but also kind and full of love.  They are a reminder that amidst the rain, the sun still shines.

Since becoming Wesley's mom, tulips now have a similar meaning for me.  Instead of simply being a beautiful flower, they are a reminder that "Holland has tulips."   The now quite famous description of raising a child titled with special needs titled Welcome to Holland describes the situation as if you were planning a trip to Italy and ended up in Holland.  In that situation, you can choose to stay bitter about the unexpected detour and withdraw feeling miserable that you're not where you wanted to be, or you can recognize the beauty in your unexpected situation and realize that although it's not Italy, Holland has tulips.  As Spring has arrived these last few weeks (in true Colorado fashion with sun, snow, and rain), I have been struck by the abundance of tulips growing around town. See, this world of special needs parenting is not often easy or peaceful, and yet, there is great beauty to be found.  As we face new and continuing medical and developmental obstacles and watch friends struggle with hospitalizations, illnesses, surgeries, and even death, I start to feel defeated and like this world can be too cruel.  But then I look up and see the tulips and I am reminded of this amazing community of parents I've met and the beauty of hard earned smiles, steps, hugs, and more and the connection these miraculous children show us to a faithful God.